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Paida

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Paida talks about being told she had HIV when she was 11, how it affected her and how she dealt with stigma.


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Transcript:

'My name is Paida and I am eighteen-years-old and I’m from Rochdale.'

'When I got to high school in year 7, that's when my doctor and my mom decided to tell me about my HIV status.'

'I didn’t tell no one at that point, I didn’t tell any of my friends.'

'I just couldn't keep it in because I was young as well I just thought I am keeping a secret from one of my best friends and I'm dying to tell her and she was like yeah I’ll be there for you – oh she was crying I’ll be there for you, you will not go through this alone.'

'But then it turned out about two years later she disclosed it... people would either shout out ‘HIV’ or shout out some nasty words and some parents were complaining saying how come I’m being allowed to go to the same school as their child when I’ve got HIV.'

'And that's when I decided to come out publicly to everyone I want and I told everyone: 'yeah this is my status so if you are going to walk out my life then walk out of my life. If not and you are going to stay, then I appreciate that'.'

'If I woke up and there was no stigma in HIV I’d be so happy, like I don’t know what to say but I’d be so happy because I’ll know everyone now understands.'

'I feel so much better now than I used to feel because I used to feel, because I used to feel so weak. But now I just feel like a normal person now.'

'Don’t let HIV control you, you have to take control of it.'

'It starts with me.'